May 17, 2016

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Sixteen years ago, give or take a day or so, I posted my first fanfic.

Fandom’s really always been a part of the Internet, but in 2000 it wasn’t as organized online as it is now. existed, but it wasn’t yet the go-to source for fic; stories were mainly hosted on individual fan-run sites, and bulletin boards were the order of the day.

I’d been a fan long before I knew what fandom was, but my venture into Prey was only my second attempt at online fandom as a social thing.  I’d read stories for Space: Above and Beyond and sought out factoids about the show, but I didn’t participate in the community, as such.  In the Prey fandom I found a small but welcoming community willing to speculate endlessly about the universe of the show and how the plotline might be resolved (second-worst cliffhanger ending ever, I swear).

And there were writers.  Not many, because even in its heyday Prey never had a huge following, but there was fic.

I’d been writing fanfic for years for my own pleasure, but for the first time I really wrote a story, or the beginning of one, rather than isolated scenes.  And I took my heart in my hands, and gave it over to be posted (thank you, Joxer!).

I don’t remember, any more, exactly what I expected.  I don’t think I hoped for anything more than a lukewarm response–it was my first attempt in the fandom, after all.

Sixteen years ago exactly, I got my first review.  And then another, and another.  And I was stunned.

They loved it.

It was alchemy.  It was magic.  It quite literally changed my life.

Because of the Prey fandom, I had the courage to write for U.C. Undercover, and then Firefly and Law and Order: Criminal Intent.  And then I hit CSI and GSR, and never looked back.

The Prey fandom presence online faded away, as so many do, and the message board has gone the way of most such outmoded sites.  But I remember.  J.K., I have no idea where you are now, but yours was the first e-mail I got, and I have it still.  Every so often I re-read it, to remember the thrill and the joy of knowing I got it right.

In honor of this, and to remember, I’m reposting that story.  It was online for a while, but then I took it down when it was turned into a hard-copy ‘zine.  Apparently the press that published is no longer active (the site’s still up, but nobody’s home?) so I doubt anyone will object.  Skein is now up at AO3 and will be posted at as soon as I can get the latter to behave is finally up at argh.

If you choose to read it, and I don’t suggest you do so unless you saw the show, please be kind.  I do like to think my writing’s improved over the years, and I had to seriously resist the impulse to spruce it up in places.

Thank you, Prey fandom.  You showed me that my work had value; more, you proved to me that I did actually have a gift.  1.5 million words later, I am a writer.

(Also, I have a thing for emotionally damaged half-aliens and the women who save them, but we knew that already…)

February 18, 2016


Posted in Uncategorized tagged , , at 10:56 pm by vrtrakowski

I’m thinking of porting more of my stories from to AO3–not removing them from by any means, but AO3 is more user-friendly and I’ve had people ask in the past for a way to get multi-chapter stories all at once.  54 on AO3 versus 208 (good grief!) on–I’m not counting that last Advent trainwreck because I didn’t put those on  But I don’t know as I’d move all of ‘em; some never got read as far as I know, and there’s a few I’d prefer to ignore (the first effort in any fandom can be embarrassing).

The trouble is what to choose–and how to do it.  AO3 has an import feature but won’t work for it, which means I’d have to do all 40 chapters of HttM, for instance, one at a time.  Now, it is a good opportunity to fix the little errors that do creep in, but it’s going to take time and fiddling, and I’m six months behind on my Website, and trying to write, and, and.

Maybe I can just do them very slowly.  It’ll confuse anyone following me on AO3, though.  And is it even worth it to do all that CSI stuff?  As far as I know, GSR was pretty much fading by the time AO3 really got off the ground.  I don’t think there’s much of a presence there.

June 15, 2009

Lost and Found

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This is my little virus-bunny from April, finished and tidied up.  Lost and Found is rated NC-17 for smut-lite, and is Iron Man and Tony/Pepper.  It’s also more angsty than I usually get, but this is an idea I’ve wanted to explore for some time. Many, many thanks to [info]cincoflex for betawork, enthusiasm, major reassurance, patiently rereading, and of course the banners. And a special thanks to [info]mingsmommy for another POV and expert advice on Charleston!

May 25, 2009

Sneaking in under the wire

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Happy birthday, inalichenmanner!  *tosses confetti*  Many happy returns of the day!  Just for you, I finished Of Doctors and Detectives.  😀  Thank you for goading me into it in the first place, and I hope your day was wonderful.

May 20, 2009

Palmer’s Kiss extras

Posted in Uncategorized tagged , at 9:05 pm by vrtrakowski

Just a few pictures I used as guides.

Pepper's gift to Tony

Pepper's gift to Tony

You can see why I didn’t really describe it–it doesn’t look like anything!

Pepper's wedding dress

Pepper's wedding dress

Yes, it’s from the same site where I found Sara’s dress for Down to Sleep.

Tony after the honeymoon

Tony after the honeymoon

Okay, not really, but how could I resist? The ring is just too coincidental. *snerk*


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Just because it amuses me.


May 19, 2009

Palmer’s Kiss

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Whaddya know, I’m done.  *boggle*

Cincoflex once again made the banner (I’ve been saving this one) and encouraged, admonished, cheered, shored up, and in all ways made this story possible. I’ve been writing it since last autumn; you’d think she’d get tired of it, but she soldiered on! *wink* Thank you, love.

Palmer’s Kiss, Chapter 15 and Epilogue.  Thanks for reading!


May 7, 2009


Posted in Uncategorized tagged , , , , at 7:16 pm by vrtrakowski

Quick and unbetaed, inspired by comments about spoilers on the tonypepper community. Heh. Rated PG just to be on the safe side. Please note, I know almost nothing about the comics, so I’m faking most of this.
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May 5, 2009

Hiatus time

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Yeah, Palmer’s Kiss is going on standby for a week while I chew on it. *sigh* Have a fluffbunny instead. The Rival is for Cincoflex, who patiently puts up with my muse cutting into our chat time!

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April 29, 2009

Chapter 13

Posted in Uncategorized tagged , , , , , at 9:33 am by vrtrakowski

Short and late, but up. *grumble* I need more sleep.

Palmer’s Kiss, Chapter 13.

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