May 17, 2016

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Sixteen years ago, give or take a day or so, I posted my first fanfic.

Fandom’s really always been a part of the Internet, but in 2000 it wasn’t as organized online as it is now. existed, but it wasn’t yet the go-to source for fic; stories were mainly hosted on individual fan-run sites, and bulletin boards were the order of the day.

I’d been a fan long before I knew what fandom was, but my venture into Prey was only my second attempt at online fandom as a social thing.  I’d read stories for Space: Above and Beyond and sought out factoids about the show, but I didn’t participate in the community, as such.  In the Prey fandom I found a small but welcoming community willing to speculate endlessly about the universe of the show and how the plotline might be resolved (second-worst cliffhanger ending ever, I swear).

And there were writers.  Not many, because even in its heyday Prey never had a huge following, but there was fic.

I’d been writing fanfic for years for my own pleasure, but for the first time I really wrote a story, or the beginning of one, rather than isolated scenes.  And I took my heart in my hands, and gave it over to be posted (thank you, Joxer!).

I don’t remember, any more, exactly what I expected.  I don’t think I hoped for anything more than a lukewarm response–it was my first attempt in the fandom, after all.

Sixteen years ago exactly, I got my first review.  And then another, and another.  And I was stunned.

They loved it.

It was alchemy.  It was magic.  It quite literally changed my life.

Because of the Prey fandom, I had the courage to write for U.C. Undercover, and then Firefly and Law and Order: Criminal Intent.  And then I hit CSI and GSR, and never looked back.

The Prey fandom presence online faded away, as so many do, and the message board has gone the way of most such outmoded sites.  But I remember.  J.K., I have no idea where you are now, but yours was the first e-mail I got, and I have it still.  Every so often I re-read it, to remember the thrill and the joy of knowing I got it right.

In honor of this, and to remember, I’m reposting that story.  It was online for a while, but then I took it down when it was turned into a hard-copy ‘zine.  Apparently the press that published is no longer active (the site’s still up, but nobody’s home?) so I doubt anyone will object.  Skein is now up at AO3 and will be posted at as soon as I can get the latter to behave is finally up at argh.

If you choose to read it, and I don’t suggest you do so unless you saw the show, please be kind.  I do like to think my writing’s improved over the years, and I had to seriously resist the impulse to spruce it up in places.

Thank you, Prey fandom.  You showed me that my work had value; more, you proved to me that I did actually have a gift.  1.5 million words later, I am a writer.

(Also, I have a thing for emotionally damaged half-aliens and the women who save them, but we knew that already…)

June 15, 2009

Lost and Found

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This is my little virus-bunny from April, finished and tidied up.  Lost and Found is rated NC-17 for smut-lite, and is Iron Man and Tony/Pepper.  It’s also more angsty than I usually get, but this is an idea I’ve wanted to explore for some time. Many, many thanks to [info]cincoflex for betawork, enthusiasm, major reassurance, patiently rereading, and of course the banners. And a special thanks to [info]mingsmommy for another POV and expert advice on Charleston!

May 31, 2009

For all those who love Doc Robbins…

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tres_mechante‘s Book Lovers.  Not graphic but definitely adult.  Marvelous!

May 25, 2009

Sneaking in under the wire

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Happy birthday, inalichenmanner!  *tosses confetti*  Many happy returns of the day!  Just for you, I finished Of Doctors and Detectives.  😀  Thank you for goading me into it in the first place, and I hope your day was wonderful.

May 19, 2009

Palmer’s Kiss

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Whaddya know, I’m done.  *boggle*

Cincoflex once again made the banner (I’ve been saving this one) and encouraged, admonished, cheered, shored up, and in all ways made this story possible. I’ve been writing it since last autumn; you’d think she’d get tired of it, but she soldiered on! *wink* Thank you, love.

Palmer’s Kiss, Chapter 15 and Epilogue.  Thanks for reading!


May 7, 2009


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Quick and unbetaed, inspired by comments about spoilers on the tonypepper community. Heh. Rated PG just to be on the safe side. Please note, I know almost nothing about the comics, so I’m faking most of this.
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May 5, 2009

Hiatus time

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Yeah, Palmer’s Kiss is going on standby for a week while I chew on it. *sigh* Have a fluffbunny instead. The Rival is for Cincoflex, who patiently puts up with my muse cutting into our chat time!

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April 29, 2009

Chapter 13

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Short and late, but up. *grumble* I need more sleep.

Palmer’s Kiss, Chapter 13.

April 23, 2009


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I wasn’t going to take this plot bunny seriously, but oh well, thank you seanan_mcguire.  *snerk*  Iron Man, Tony/Pepper, rated PG.  Read at your own risk due to, um, provocative imagery, and no, it’s not what you’re thinking of.

Banner and rapid betaing by Cincoflex, who never fails me!


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April 21, 2009

Chapter 12

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The latest chapter of Palmer’s Kiss is now up, with much genuflecting in Cincoflex’s direction! *hearts* This fandom has changed me; I didn’t used to think of a chapter of over 4400 words as “short”. Oh well, so goes the bunny.

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